I thank you.
I thank you for saving me from myself.
You saved me, from my own self-created illusion, that I was the centre of the universe.
You saved me, from the burdens on my back that were crushing me.
You saved me, from the fortress that I myself built, to "protect" me.
You saved me, for wearing too many masks, that I do not know who I really am.
With your fist, you shattered the fragile illusion.
With your voice, you commanded the burdens to leave.
With your presence, the fortress was demolished.
With your eyes, the masks tore off, one by one.
You left me with only a shell of myself.
You left me vulnerable, reminding me that I was human.
You forcibly crushed my own delusions, reminding me that I can be hurt like anyone else.
You burned the masks, leaving me with only one option - to really be myself.
I thank you for not rejecting me outright when I did what I did to you.
I thank you for not destroying me, even though you could have done so very easily.
I thank you for your tolerance and patience towards me, even though I did some questionable things around you.
I thank you for spending time to listen, even when I was spouting nonsense.
I thank you for acting entertained, even though I wasn't even remotely entertaining.
I thank you, for revealing what I needed, instead of giving me what I wanted.
I thank you, for providing me with what I really needed - a good helping of reality slapped on my face.
I lament the fact that we are so near, yet are as far as the heavens and earth.
I lament the fact that Time was not on our side.
I lament the fact that the Fates were playing a joke on us, as we could have met way earlier.
I lament the fact that I only met you so late.
I lament the fact that I lacked the courage to approach you at first.
As you leave,
The illusion will be recreated.
The burdens are coming back.
The fortress is rebuilt.
The masks will be worn again.
As you leave,
I can only hope, that someday I will meet you again.
I can only hope, that someday everything comes crumbling down again.
I can only hope, that I will not need the masks again.
I can only hope, that I can find another like you as a companion.
Until then,
I journey the dark Earth with my illusion.
I journey the dark Earth carrying my burdens.
I build upon the dark Earth, my fortress.
I journey the dark Earth, wearing the masks, traveling as an unknown, an enigma.
Until then,
I pray the Fates treat you well.
I pray that the Almighty protect you.
I pray that my Provider provides for you.
I pray that His angels protect you and those you love.
As you have blessed me, so will I.
If you need an ear, I will listen.
If you need a shoulder, I will provide.
If you need an opinion, I will give.
If you seek counsel, I will avail myself.
I doubt you will even find this, never mind read this,
So until then,
I thank you for giving this pathetic shell of a man a reason to exist.
I thank you that you revealed to this man his identity, when it was previously buried.
I thank you that you gave this man a chance, when he normally would have none.
I thank you that you gave this man comfort, when he previously found none.
I thank you that you gave this man confidence, when he previously had none.
I thank you that you gave this man the heart of a lion, when he previously had one of a mouse.
I thank you that you gave this man what he needed all along - a real friend.
From the bottom of my heart, I say to you:
I thank you, MY FRIEND.
To a Friend
I WANT ONE!!!
Having your messaging software, Photoshop, Maya, Internet browser and media player all at once is kind of a pain in the hind portion. For those with desktops (like me), we get a second (or third, or fourth, or seventh, or tenth) monitor (again, like me). And trust me, you WILL want a second monitor. Once you go multi-monitor, you never go back.
So, what about those who use notebooks?
You can't exactly lug a second monitor around you, now can you?
Well, meet the answer (coutesy of Gizmodo)
- Windows VISTA
/ WIN XP PRO (optional)- Intel Core 2 Duo P8400 2.26-GHz
- 4 GB of RAM (2GB DDR2 SO-DIMM x 2)
- 320GB 7200-rpm HD
- NVIDIA® GeForce® 9800M GT with 512MB dedicated memory (or)
- NVIDIA® Quadro FX 1700M Graphics with 512MB dedicated memory
- 9-cell battery
- IEEE 1394 1 Graphics Card Output (15-pin, D-Sub) X 1, HDMI X 1 Mic-in X 1, Line-in x 1, Headphone X 1 PCI Express Card X 1 AC Power Adaptor Output: 19V DC, 90W Input: 100~240V AC, 50/60Hz universal Battery Pack Li-ion 9 cells
R.I.P Michael
Michael Jackson passed away.
A legend has disappeared.
When I was a child, your face occupied the television for your awesome music.
When I was a teen, your face occupied the television for your legal battles.
You also did some stupid things, like dangling your son.
Nevertheless, you changed the face of music.
You were a remarkable person.
You were the King of Pop, and no one's taking that away from you.
R.I.P Michael.
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...
People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...
Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...
Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had
Have you seen my Childhood...
- "Childhood", Michael Jackson
F*CK YEAH!!!
How do you defeat a giant monster?
You go all "Rock Band" on its ass.
Seriously.
You have to watch to believe this sh*t.
Epic.
My mind just exploded from the awesomeness that is the Rock Band Riders.
FINAL ATTACK RIDE: R-R-R-ROCK BAAAAAAAAAND!!!!
A Mother's Day Message
Dear Mummy,
Without you, I wouldn't have been born
And wouldn't be able to eat rice, bah kut teh (haha!) or even corn
In this world that is so uptight
You just wanted me to try my best and it would be alright
Although this world is as dark as night
You taught me to be a star, shining bright
Even though I got them full of dirt
You'd never cease to wash my shirts
I'm glad for the times you fetched me from school
If not, I'd be spending long hours on a stool
I apologise for the mistakes I made
The things I did and the words I said
Even though I didn't shine as bright compared to others
You didn't really give the comparing thing a bother
Thanks to you, I'm able to be tolerant and kind
And patient and easy-going and polite too
You may not be a perfect mother
But you're my mother, and that's perfect enough for me
Thanks for making me who I am.
Happy Mother's Day.
I Need A Second Opinion. Again.
Went and did me a few personality quizzes, and yeah, the answers aren't really what I expected. Weird.
The five-question personality test
Here is the analysis:
1. Your ideal mate has a good figure.
2. You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
3. You are in despair about your lack of success. That's your attitudes towards success.
4. You realize that there are always ups and downs. Joy and sorrow are constant companions.
5. You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.
Yeah. I agree with 2,3 and 4. Not sure with numbers 1 and 5 though...
The Third Eye
Here is the analysis:
It takes you a long time to develop your relationship and fall in love with someone. Once you love, you will love with all your heart, sincerely and forever.
Wow. Unexpected answer.
The Most Miserable
Here is the analysis:
You are a person with full of ambitions and creativity. You are very concerned about changes happening around you. You are also a very temperamental person.
YOUR LOVE
If you are a gay or lesbo, sorry it's not the real you!
Did you notice that you are a "hot target" among the opposite sex?
You can easily attract the opposite sex. Basically you are a very popular person, so many people like to chat with you.
"Hot target"? Yeah, right. I'm like the direct opposite. I'm the quarantine zone: I REPEL rather than ATTRACT. Nice try.
So far, that's it. The reason I'm doing this post is because I'm trying to procrastinate from doing my assignments. I'll be doing more at a later time. I think.
Huh. I Need A Second Opinion.
Just took a personality test and the results are... I need a second opinion on this one.
Can somebody confirm that whatever that's being stated below reflects who I am?
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
