My Life In Words...

To a Friend

2009-12-09T21:45:00.004+08:00

I thank you.

I thank you for saving me from myself.
You saved me, from my own self-created illusion, that I was the centre of the universe.
You saved me, from the burdens on my back that were crushing me.
You saved me, from the fortress that I myself built, to "protect" me.
You saved me, for wearing too many masks, that I do not know who I really am.

With your fist, you shattered the fragile illusion.
With your voice, you commanded the burdens to leave.
With your presence, the fortress was demolished.
With your eyes, the masks tore off, one by one.

You left me with only a shell of myself.
You left me vulnerable, reminding me that I was human.
You forcibly crushed my own delusions, reminding me that I can be hurt like anyone else.
You burned the masks, leaving me with only one option - to really be myself.

I thank you for not rejecting me outright when I did what I did to you.
I thank you for not destroying me, even though you could have done so very easily.
I thank you for your tolerance and patience towards me, even though I did some questionable things around you.
I thank you for spending time to listen, even when I was spouting nonsense.
I thank you for acting entertained, even though I wasn't even remotely entertaining.
I thank you, for revealing what I needed, instead of giving me what I wanted.
I thank you, for providing me with what I really needed - a good helping of reality slapped on my face.

I lament the fact that we are so near, yet are as far as the heavens and earth.
I lament the fact that Time was not on our side.
I lament the fact that the Fates were playing a joke on us, as we could have met way earlier.
I lament the fact that I only met you so late.
I lament the fact that I lacked the courage to approach you at first.

As you leave,
The illusion will be recreated.
The burdens are coming back.
The fortress is rebuilt.
The masks will be worn again.

As you leave,
I can only hope, that someday I will meet you again.
I can only hope, that someday everything comes crumbling down again.
I can only hope, that I will not need the masks again.
I can only hope, that I can find another like you as a companion.

Until then,
I journey the dark Earth with my illusion.
I journey the dark Earth carrying my burdens.
I build upon the dark Earth, my fortress.
I journey the dark Earth, wearing the masks, traveling as an unknown, an enigma.

Until then,
I pray the Fates treat you well.
I pray that the Almighty protect you.
I pray that my Provider provides for you.
I pray that His angels protect you and those you love.

As you have blessed me, so will I.
If you need an ear, I will listen.
If you need a shoulder, I will provide.
If you need an opinion, I will give.
If you seek counsel, I will avail myself.

I doubt you will even find this, never mind read this,
So until then,
I thank you for giving this pathetic shell of a man a reason to exist.
I thank you that you revealed to this man his identity, when it was previously buried.
I thank you that you gave this man a chance, when he normally would have none.
I thank you that you gave this man comfort, when he previously found none.
I thank you that you gave this man confidence, when he previously had none.
I thank you that you gave this man the heart of a lion, when he previously had one of a mouse.
I thank you that you gave this man what he needed all along - a real friend.

From the bottom of my heart, I say to you:
I thank you, MY FRIEND.

I WANT ONE!!!

2009-08-31T19:48:00.007+08:00

Note: I haven't been updating my blog for a long time. OK, make that a very loooooooong time. Hope this will put me back into my blogging mood.

Having your messaging software, Photoshop, Maya, Internet browser and media player all at once is kind of a pain in the hind portion. For those with desktops (like me), we get a second (or third, or fourth, or seventh, or tenth) monitor (again, like me). And trust me, you WILL want a second monitor. Once you go multi-monitor, you never go back.

So, what about those who use notebooks?

You can't exactly lug a second monitor around you, now can you?

Well, meet the answer (coutesy of Gizmodo)

Yes, that is a dual-screen notebook.

That, my friends, is the gScreen Spacebook.

Two 15.4-inch screens. One notebook body. Total awesomeness.

The screens slide, so you can alternate between single- and dual-screen mode.

Yes, it is that awesome.

And the specs?

- 2 LED backlit display screens
- Windows VISTA/ WIN XP PRO (optional)
- Intel Core 2 Duo P8400 2.26-GHz
- 4 GB of RAM (2GB DDR2 SO-DIMM x 2)
- 320GB 7200-rpm HD
- NVIDIA® GeForce® 9800M GT with 512MB dedicated memory (or)
- NVIDIA® Quadro FX 1700M Graphics with 512MB dedicated memory
- 9-cell battery
- IEEE 1394 1 Graphics Card Output (15-pin, D-Sub) X 1, HDMI X 1 Mic-in X 1, Line-in x 1, Headphone X 1 PCI Express Card X 1 AC Power Adaptor Output: 19V DC, 90W Input: 100~240V AC, 50/60Hz universal Battery Pack Li-ion 9 cells

Quite good, actually.

Bad news, the price. This baby should set you back around USD 3000. Yes, USD 3000.

Still, I WANT ONE!!!

R.I.P Michael

2009-06-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

Michael Jackson passed away.

A legend has disappeared.

When I was a child, your face occupied the television for your awesome music.

When I was a teen, your face occupied the television for your legal battles.

You also did some stupid things, like dangling your son.

Nevertheless, you changed the face of music.

You were a remarkable person.

You were the King of Pop, and no one's taking that away from you.

R.I.P Michael.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood...
- "Childhood", Michael Jackson

F*CK YEAH!!!

2009-06-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

How do you defeat a giant monster?

You go all "Rock Band" on its ass.

Seriously.

You have to watch to believe this sh*t.

Epic.

My mind just exploded from the awesomeness that is the Rock Band Riders.

FINAL ATTACK RIDE: R-R-R-ROCK BAAAAAAAAAND!!!!

A Mother's Day Message

2009-05-10T23:16:00.003+08:00

Dear Mummy,

Without you, I wouldn't have been born
And wouldn't be able to eat rice, bah kut teh (haha!) or even corn

In this world that is so uptight
You just wanted me to try my best and it would be alright

Although this world is as dark as night
You taught me to be a star, shining bright

Even though I got them full of dirt
You'd never cease to wash my shirts

I'm glad for the times you fetched me from school
If not, I'd be spending long hours on a stool

I apologise for the mistakes I made
The things I did and the words I said

Even though I didn't shine as bright compared to others
You didn't really give the comparing thing a bother

Thanks to you, I'm able to be tolerant and kind
And patient and easy-going and polite too

You may not be a perfect mother
But you're my mother, and that's perfect enough for me

Thanks for making me who I am.

Happy Mother's Day.

I Need A Second Opinion. Again.

2009-05-03T03:50:00.002+08:00

Went and did me a few personality quizzes, and yeah, the answers aren't really what I expected. Weird.

The five-question personality test
Here is the analysis:

1. Your ideal mate has a good figure.
2. You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
3. You are in despair about your lack of success. That's your attitudes towards success.
4. You realize that there are always ups and downs. Joy and sorrow are constant companions.
5. You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

Yeah. I agree with 2,3 and 4. Not sure with numbers 1 and 5 though...

The Third Eye
Here is the analysis:
It takes you a long time to develop your relationship and fall in love with someone. Once you love, you will love with all your heart, sincerely and forever.

Wow. Unexpected answer.

The Most Miserable
Here is the analysis:
You are a person with full of ambitions and creativity. You are very concerned about changes happening around you. You are also a very temperamental person.

YOUR LOVE
If you are a gay or lesbo, sorry it's not the real you!

Did you notice that you are a "hot target" among the opposite sex?

You can easily attract the opposite sex. Basically you are a very popular person, so many people like to chat with you.

"Hot target"? Yeah, right. I'm like the direct opposite. I'm the quarantine zone: I REPEL rather than ATTRACT. Nice try.

So far, that's it. The reason I'm doing this post is because I'm trying to procrastinate from doing my assignments. I'll be doing more at a later time. I think.

Huh. I Need A Second Opinion.

2009-04-24T01:46:00.002+08:00

Just took a personality test and the results are... I need a second opinion on this one.

Can somebody confirm that whatever that's being stated below reflects who I am?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

This is PRECISELY Why You Don't Play With Garbage Bins

2009-04-02T23:39:00.001+08:00

Mach 23 - Ron Wasserman (Tagged by Victor)

2009-03-12T01:59:00.008+08:00

Damn. Surfed Victor's blog and found out I'd been tagged. (Victor, I hate you. Curse me and my sense of obligation!!!) Well, here it goes...

Rules:
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/Handphone/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
City Under Attack - Power Rangers Operation Overdrive (Er... yeah, weird...)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Midnight Submarine - Animetal (Well, can't really say "no" to a girl who has her own sub, right?)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Shaider Blue - Takayuki Miyauchi (Well, *sorta* blue?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Tokkyuu Shirei Solbrain (Instrumental) - Sakkyoku: Kisaburo Suzuki (Er, to be a superhero?)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Man in the Mirror - Michael Jackson (STOP giving me cryptic stuff, damn shuffle function!!!!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Whisper Zone - Ramsey Lewis (Curse me and my music collection.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Alive - PJ Olsson (No sh*t, Sherlock)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
愛の愛の星 - the brilliant green (Song is loosely translated as "Star of Love" or something like that. Kind of true though...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
The Road to Mandalay - Robbie Williams (That doesn't even make sense!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Song of Dartanius - Animetal (No comment.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Gotta Get Thru This (Acoustic Version Live at TOTP) - Daniel Bedingfield (sounds like I'm suffering, ain't it?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
More - Hillsong United (One of the more accurate answers in this whole list.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Say it Again - Marie Digby (Yeah, no idea on this whatsoever.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sei Aquarion - Jerry Kentig (I see a giant robot?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
To the Stairs of Trial - Testsuya Shibata (STOP WITH THE METAPHORS!!!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Power Rangers Zeo - Jeremy Sweet, Ron Wasserman, ZEO (HELL NO!!!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Chimerareta Romance (Reprise) - Animetal Lady (Don't ask. I don't know either.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Move Right Out - Rick Astley (Wait, what?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Holding Back the Years - Simply Red (Er....)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Karate Fool Ichidai - Animetal (Shut. Up.)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Violet - Seal (What Violet? A girl? A colour? What? WHAT?!)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Just Gigastreamer - Ichiro Mizuki (Er, what?)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Message to You - Scatman John (How the hell does this make me laugh?)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Uchuu no Ouja Grendizer - Animetal (Now, how does this make me cry?!)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
To Kill a Demon - Martin O'Donnell; Michael Salvatori (Sh*t.)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Truth And Reconciliation Suite - Martin O'Donnell; Michael Salvatori (Sh*t. Again.)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Otoko no Na wa Kamen Rider - Ichiro Mizuki (Victor, you're getting payback for tagging me.)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Tomorrow Never Dies - Sheryl Crow (Wouldn't that just create a temporal paradox?)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Ultra Q Main Theme (Edit Version) - Studio Orchestra (Uh-huh... And how exactly dos it hurt me again?)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Mach 23 - Ron Wasserman (Well, at least it's not Lily Allen's "F*ck You")

Tag: Nobody, since I don't really know who follows this pathetic reason of a blog.

The Road Not Taken

2009-02-07T16:58:00.003+08:00

Just thought about this poem when I found a few friends from primary school in Facebook.

We have lost contact for more then 6 years, then they make a "return".

The main reason we got separated was I went to a national-type school, while they went to private schools.

I actually took the entrance exam, passed it, just never did enter school, sad to say.

It was mainly because my dad got me into the one of the best national-type schools in Klang (SMJK Kwang Hua Klang).

Ever since I "re-met" them (if there ever was such a word), the question never ceased to bug me: What would happen if I made that turn?

What would happen if I went to a private school?

Thus, the poem by Robert Frost:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Did the road I take make "all the difference"?

People I never met.

People I never loved.

Things I would never do.

A whole universe opens up!

I would like to meet him.

Me from an alternate universe.

Where he took the path I didn't get to choose.

I would like to meet him.

So many questions to ask him!

"So, how's life?"

"Where are you studying now?"

"Got a girlfriend?"

"Tell me everything."

"Tell me everything."

"Tell me everything..."

I just watched the first episode of DCD...

2009-01-30T12:34:00.002+08:00

And I have to say...

... My brain just exploded due to pure awesomeness.

Coming of a Decade...

2009-01-24T12:55:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow, a new hero will rise.

Ladies and gents, I present to you the Masked Rider for 2009: DCD (Pronounced "Decade")

It's kind of a big deal, 'cause it's like an anniversary for "New Gen" Riders, "New Gen" being those made in 2000 and after. See why he's called DCD?

Didn't really dig the pink armour at first, but it kinda grew on me. I guess.

Can't wait for TV-Nihon to sub the show.

Yay!

Oh Snap...

2009-01-20T23:55:00.005+08:00

It's been quite a while since I posted something (1 month to be exact), so I'm post something totally random.

The picture below is showing the difference of diet between two monkeys. Both are nearly the same age. Take a look:For those too lazy to click to see the enlarged picture, this is a summary:
Left-hand-side monkey consumes around 445 calories.
Right-hand-side monkey consumes nearly 885 calories.

The dishes below are human equivalents for the meals: 2000 on the left, 3000 on the right.

Notice the difference?

Oh snap. Just realized something.

I'M THE MONKEY ON THE RIGHT SIDE!!!

I'm gonna look like that when I'm old.

Crapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrap...

I don't wanna look old when I get old.

I still wanna pick up chicks when I'm 50! (That is, if I'm not married)

Crapcrapcrapcrapcrapcrap...

Remember When I Said...

2008-12-20T13:37:00.002+08:00

That I was disappointed with the MTV EMAs? C'mon, it was a few posts ago.

Well, Rick Astley made an unexpected appearance in America.

Watch the video:

Yes, I know.

Very unexpected.

Still awesome though.

Rick Astley FTW!!!

THAT'S IT! I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

2008-11-23T18:19:00.003+08:00

I am sick and tired of adults abusing children!

Brothers jailed over murder of toddler who was tortured in a hot clothes dryer

What did the child ever do to them to ever deserve this kind of torture?

What did the child ever do to you?

Did she deserve to to abused by you people?

You people are sickening.

You people disgust me.

I hope you guys get the "eye for an eye" treatment.

I hope you guys rot in hell.

OH COME ON!!!

2008-11-23T17:47:00.005+08:00

Just when you believe things in Malaysia couldn't get any worse.

Fatwa Council deems ancient form of exercise from India 'haram' for Muslims

Seriously, yoga?

You guys banned yoga?

Out of so many things you guys could ban (cigarettes?), you guys decided to ban yoga?

Let's make a comparison here.

Yoga keeps people healthy.

Cigarettes kill people.

So, let me get this straight.

You're not banning something that's killing people, but you ban some exercise?

Wow.

Talk about thinking for Muslims.

I don't know if I should be laughing about this, or giving myself a facepalm.

I'm Disappointed...

2008-11-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

Disappointed that Rick Astley didn't get the respect he deserved.

Get this: He actually WON Best Act Ever for the 2008 MTV European Music Awards.

Yep. He WON.

Hurray right?

WRONG!

Watch this video:

Then compare it with Best Headliner Award, won by Tokio Hotel:

Notice the difference?

He didn't attend, I understand.

He didn't perform, I understand.

But he didn't get the recognition that other winners got? That I DON'T understand.

Currently, there are two parties on this matter: Rick Astley fans and Tokio Hotel fans (Tokio Hotel was supposed to win Best Act Ever, that is, until Rick fans rocked the system).

See, Rick Astley wasn't even supposed to be nominated, let alone win. Seems MTV put him in these as a joke.

Guess what? Joke's on MTV now.

Apparently, Tokio Hotel fans are using the fact that Rick fans are using Auto-Voters to Vote for Rick. Here's the catch: http://ema.mtv.co.uk/assets/pdf/how-voting-works.co.uk.pdf

MTV actually ENCOURAGED people to vote multiple times.

BUSTED!

This is hypocritical of MTV.

Good thing I don't watch it anyway.

By the way, if you don't know who Rick Astley is, watch these recent videos, they'll sound very familiar:

Screw you, MTV.

"Yes We Can"

2008-11-06T04:30:00.003+08:00

"I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character."

~ Martin Luther King Jr.

Guess what?

Those words came true.

A new age has come.

A new world is coming.

Prepare yourself.

Yes We Can.

And something kickass to suit the occasion.

THIS IS ALSO TOTALLY AWESOME!!!

2008-10-31T03:07:00.003+08:00

Little known fact: Japan actually made a Spider-Man series in 1978.

Yes, Spider-Man.

Apparently, they had a deal with Marvel Comics at the time.

And get this, instead of a whiny teenage wimp given powers by a radioactive spider bite, the Japanese version gets a giant robot.

I repeat.

A GIANT ROBOT.

That just made him a whole lot badass, don't you think?

It's like badass to the power of Infinity.

That kind of badass.

Here was the Opening for the series:

By the way, the giant robot's name is Leopardon. Yes, it is based on a leopard. Why they put it in a show where the main character is Spider-Man is beyond me. But still, GO GIANT ROBOTS!!! W00T!!!

THIS IS TOTALLY AWESOME!!!

2008-10-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

Wow. Just wow.

Why didn't I think about it for my project?

Damn.

The Monsters Within...

2008-10-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster."

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

"We don't hate people because they are different, we hate them because we see within them what we hate about ourselves."

~ Andrew Yew

What have I turned into?

In him, I see who, or what I could have been.

In him, I see what would have happened if I took a different path.

In him, I see myself.

In him, I see my darker self.

In him, I see a nightmare of myself.

In him, I see the other side of my coin.

In desperately not trying to become him, have I changed for the worse?

In desperately escaping from emulating him, have I turned into something more evil?

In struggling against mirroring him, am I actually getting closer and closer to *becoming* him?

In fighting this "monster", have I in turn, become one myself?

I don't know...

ATOMIC BOMBERMAN!!!

2008-10-16T00:38:00.002+08:00

Wow. After all this time, I've finally found the game which I spent a lot of time when I was in Standard 1: ATOMIC BOMBERMAN!!!

If you don't know Bomberman, where were you living in, a cave?!

Basic concept of the Bomberman franchise: Blow the sh*t out of each other with bombs. Yep, just that easy.

Here was the trailer for "Atomic Bomberman":

So far...

2008-10-11T01:07:00.004+08:00

Current progress: Exam Week

Going to fail: Japanese

(Will) barely pass: Computer Modelling

So far so good: Computer Environment

Not sure: Scripting Languages

Yeah, being in FCM is so much fun...

Sigh...

I'm screwed ain't I?

Seeing Double...

2008-10-10T19:26:00.004+08:00

I have always wanted to get me a second monitor, ever since I tried to connect my own to my mother's notebook.

Just so happened that my lecturer was promoting second-hand monitors. 17 inches for RM 210. Awesomely cheap right? So of course, I went to get one (Er, duh).

Just added it to my computer family. The family picture:

Got the *ahem* wallpaper form DeviantArt. Oh, the second-hand monitor is the HP one on the left. The one on the right has been stuck with me since Form 4.

Oh crap...

2008-10-02T15:30:00.002+08:00

My wallet cried when I saw this:

COMMAND & CONQUER RED ALERT 3 COMMANDER'S PACK

Red Alert 3 Premier Edition in Limited Edition collector's tin (worth $79.90 / RM195)
- Five exclusive multiplayer/skirmish maps
- Bonus DVD featuring the following:
  - Full-length Raising the Iron Curtain making-of movie with exclusive interviews from the star-studded cast
  - Concept art montage video "From Pens to Pixels"
  - Bloopers and outtakes from the cinematics sessions
  - Women of Red Alert 3 montage video
  - An inside look into the future of Command & Conquer and Red Alert
  - Tips on how to unlock the secrets of each side, directly from the developers
  - Complete video walk-thru on one of the game's most difficult missions
- Game Soundtrack including exclusive remixes of Hell March and Hell March 2 by From First to Last, plus the all-new Hell March 3
- Women of Red Alert 3 Poster
- Exclusive Beta Key to a future Command & Conquer game
- An exclusive in-game item for Warhammer Online: Age of Reckoning - Kossar's Helm. This magical Kislevite helm is imbued with the spirit of the wild North and will magically transform the wearer into a ferocious bear.
Limited Edition C&C Red Alert 3 Dicota Notebook BacPac (worth S$108 / RM269)
Microsoft SideWinder X6 Keyboard (worth S$119 / RM299)
Custom C&C Red Alert 3 Decal for Microsoft SideWinder X6 Keyboard

Altogether: RM 499!!!

What the hell?! Noooooo...

P/S: There's another "Officer Pack" for it, costs like RM 269, no keyboard though. Sigh...

Wish..

2008-09-28T23:46:00.003+08:00

Press the play button to listen to the song.

"Wish"
By Lighthouse Family

I thought I got the A-Z but now I'm lost
And I don't know where I'm going, I don't know what I'm looking for
I'm all burnt out
There ain't that much I care about
And I know I'm missing something
I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore

I won't let it get to me
But I really miss you badly

I wish I knew how I'm gonna be happy without you
I don't know what I'm supposed to do

I thought I got it all mapped out but now I'm lost
In a world that ain't got you in I don't know what I'm living for
Hopeless without the only thing I cared about
Cos you've been my salvation in a place where there's no love anymore

I won't let it get to me
But I'm gonna miss you badly

I wish I knew how I'm gonna be happy without you
I don't know what I'm supposed to do

I wish I knew how I'm gonna be happy without you
In a different world without you

I wish I knew how I'm gonna be happy without you
I don't know what I'm supposed to do

I wish I knew how I'm gonna be happy without you
In a different world without you

Reflection...

2008-09-27T15:41:00.003+08:00

My progress in FA so far: Sucky.

Modelling is crude, Photography's just "normal", Japanese is still "meh", Scripting's OK, Comp Environment is not bad, and then there's Design Process, which I suck.

Yeah, what a way to begin the first few months of getting your degree. Good job, Andrew.

Best part is, it's only gonna get downhill from there. Awesome.

Expect to see me wander around MMU for another decade or so. Whee~

A Merdeka Message...

2008-08-30T21:03:00.003+08:00

31/8/57. That was when our country became independent from the British.

31/8/08. That will be when we celebrate our 51st year of independence.

During this period of time, what have we truly achieved?

During this period of time, are we peaceful?

During this period of time, have we lived in harmony?

Sadly, no. For half a century, we have achieved nothing much.

Wanna know why? I'll tell you why:

Our education system (still) sucks.
Seriously, studying Moral Education will make you a better person? What about those rapists? What about the snatch thieves? They were also students. They also took Moral. Cut the bullsh*t.

Then there's History. I don't mind reading Islamic History, but IT IS A PROBLEM when most of my damn History textbook is filled with it. Where's World History? Just because you keep telling me about the Prophet doesn't make me like him anymore than before I did.

Then there's that examination system. I can't believe we're still sticking to that crappy system. What worked a decade ago doesn't necessarily work now. Change the system. Cramming data inside your brain doesn't work. Believe me, I've tried.

Our politics sucks.
I dunno where to even start. If you're Malaysian, you'll know.

I've got so many more things I loathe, but then I need to keep the post short.

To me, Malaysia is an ideal.
An ideal where everyone's the same race: Malaysian.
An ideal where opportunities are given equally, not because of race.
An ideal where the law is just that: the law.
An ideal where politicians strive to improve, not bicker and make stupid sexist comments.

This country I live in is not worthy of the name Malaysia.
This country I live in is not worthy of the effort spent on freeing it.

Will I live to see the ideal turn into reality?
I don't think so.

Happy Independence Day.

I'm falling apart...

2008-08-22T23:43:00.003+08:00

Who am I if I have already lost grip of the things that make me?

Who am I when the things around me fall apart?

Who am I?

WHO AM I?!

I don't know.

The things I hold dear slip through my grip.

The things that form my identity slowly distance themselves away from me.

God, if You're hearing this,

Please, remove these burdens away.

I cannot bear the weight on my shoulders.

Please, let me be.

Please, let me return.

Whee~...

2008-08-15T11:15:00.001+08:00

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.

People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

That's It. I Quit...

2008-08-04T17:53:00.002+08:00

But I can't.

My hands reach for the sky, only for me to fall down.

I sprint towards the finishing line, only to be carrying more burdens along the way.

As I drop one, two pile up behind me.

I'm falling into the abyss.

Will nobody help me?
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My wings are clipped,

My limbs bound by chains,

I am not free.

My mouth is sealed,

I can't scream,

I am not free.

My eyes are shut,

I cannot see,

I am not free.

If I am not free,

Then why am I here?
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I long for a helping hand,

I long for strength to go on,

I long for the determination to continue,

I long for a purpose to live,

Sadly He gave me none of those.

He has only given me burden after burden.

He has only given me disappointment after disappointment.

He has only given me fall after fall.
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I want to quit... But I can't.

In Case You Didn't Know...

2008-07-31T18:10:00.008+08:00

... I'm a creepy little bastard. No, seriously, I am.

Wanna know why? I just went "grave-seeking" for my Photography assignment. Yep, you heard it, GRAVE-SEEKING. Yeah, I just went where no one dares to go. To top it off, I went to three different cemeteries. THREE. DIFFERENT. CEMETERIES. And for the first time in this blog, I've got photos! Oh yeah, all the cemeteries were in Putrajaya.

First up, the Muslim cemetery. It's even got a shiny signboard.

This is the mosque inside the complex. Pretty eh?

Yes, even I don't believe it. It looks so... pretty. So organized. Kinda makes death look like a vacation, no?

Next, there's the Chinese cemetery:
Yeah, looks kinda OK to me. Gary the driver was scared though. I was more afraid of snakes and scorpions coming out of the grass than those stuff you're not supposed to talk about.

Lastly, the Indian cemetery. Not something you see everyday, you know:

Yes, I know, very messy right?

You notice the beer can? :) Cheers, whoever you are...

And here's the kicker:

Wow. Just wow.

Oh yeah, we saw something very interesting:
Awww... Ain't that cute? The dog's fake, but ain't it soooooo cute? Makes you wanna take it home now don't you? Kinda nice though, a dog guarding a grave. Interesting concept...

Well, that's it, I think. Oh, this post was not meant to offend any race. This is just an observation of how different cultures deal with the issue of death.

There are retards...

2008-07-27T14:00:00.003+08:00

And there are Malaysian retards:

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/7/27/nation/21934450&sec=nation

No, seriously, what the heck is going on with this country? What, you religious officers too free or something? You guys are really bored ain't you? Tell you what: STOP MAKING ISLAM'S NAME FROM DETERIORATING FURTHER. It's already bad enough that Islam is being perceived as "the terrorist's religion" in the eyes of the world, now you want to make it worse. Good job, dumbass. Before I go further, yes, I am a Christian, and no, this is not an anti-Islam bash-fest. I have Muslim friends, you know. Great ones at that.

I mean, come on, a 4 a.m. religious raid? What the heck? What is this? A terrorist stakeout? Er, no, we're planning to search for cheating spouses. Yeah, good luck with that. If it was a drug stakeout by the cops, or a terrorist network-sting by the authorities, I understand. But searching for immoral activities? Please, get a life. Stop acting like you're doing something noble. You're not. Cops capturing criminals and taking drugs off the street are noble. Soldiers who fight for the country are noble. You guys? Not so much.

You know the show "Cops"? Yeah, I got a sales pitch: In light of our film industry being known to "localize" international blockbusters and "adapt" foreign TV shows, let's do the Malaysian version of "Cops". Let's call it "Religious Officers". And I might add a tagline:"Preventing Immoral Activities Since... Yeah, We Don't Know Either".

You guys who you guys are? You act like the Judges in the comic "Judge Dredd". You *act* like you guys are judge, jury and executioner. You *act* like the moral police. But, the emphasis is on "act". You CAN'T prevent immoral activities from happening. You CAN'T totally stop these things. Humans are humans.

If you still want to persist, I suggest that you do your investigation thoroughly before you go these "raids". If not, just stop.

I'm repeating what I stated. I'm a Christian, and this is not an anti-Islam bash-fest. Like I said, I have Muslim friends. We accept each other for who we are. No prejudice, no hatred. No nothing.

Ergh... I hate photography.

2008-07-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

Title says it all. I hate photography. I don't really like my pictures taken, nor do I really like to take pictures of others. Honestly, if it wasn't for friggin' Digital Photography class, I couldn't even be bothered getting a damn DSLR in the first place.

Then there's today. I SKIPPED class for the FIRST time ON PURPOSE 'cause I didn't have my tripod with me. It was in a friend's car, and said friend was sick. I can't blame people for getting sick now can I? Today was also the day when we were given our assignment brief for Digital Photography. Damn I hate the requirements. Here are the main ones:

DEPTH OF FIELD
Find 2 talents, 1 male 1 female.
Talent 1 should be 2m away from the cam, while Talent 2 is 2m away from Talent 1.
Create story or mood.
Look for significant/historical building as background.

MOTION STUDIES
Find a waterfall.
Take a pic of said waterfall.

No, I'm not making this up. These requirements, seriously don't make any sense. I can't believe I'm going to take pictures of a friggin' waterfall. And 2 models.

That's it. Screw photography.

"Why So Serious?" - The Dark Knight: My Few Cents

2008-07-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

I went to watch "The Dark Knight" on Thursday. I was expecting something a movie that's totally awesome. I WAS WRONG. This movie has exceeded my expectations. This is not just a film, it's a masterpiece. It's a comic book film done right. Forget the Spidey trilogy, ignore Superman, heck, disregard every Batman movie except "Batman Begins", 'cause this film just made them piss their pants...

If you've followed the hype, you'll know the plot: Joker comes, causes chaos blablabla, Batsy saves the day. What's surprising that it's so REAL. I know it's a comic book character, but then the movie portrays him as a real being. Not Spider-Man kind of "real"(seriously, a guy in red-and-blue spandex swinging around? Kind of makes him an easy target, wouldn't it?), not Iron Man kind of "real"(genius you may be, but those thrusters seem to be only feasible if they worked on nuclear power. Which means radiation. Which will kill you.) , just reality kind of real, you get me? The movie brings to light the consequences of Batman guarding Gotham, both positive and negative.

Now the acting. Christian Bale now IS Bruce Wayne. Now, every time I see his face, I'm expecting a Batsuit somewhere. The only thing I don't really like is the voice he uses when he dons the suit. Makes me wonder how he gets through all the nights without Strepsils. Maggie Gyllenhaal proves to be a good replacement for Katie Holmes, Aaron Eckhart's portrayal of Harvey Dent makes me wanna become a politician, Gary Oldman's James Gordon is awesome, and the two veterans (Morgan Freeman and Michael Caine) are superb in their roles as Lucius Fox and Alfred respectively. Other than the small gripe that I was expecting Alfred to be thinner and sporting a mustache like in the comics, I'm impressed with Caine as The Bat's advisor.

Then there's the late Heath Ledger. Boy, the Joker is creepy. I mean really, really creepy. I'll never look at a pencil the same way again. His portrayal of the Joker makes you wonder whether the Joker is really just a man gone to the dark side, or just simply a psychopath. He's crazy, violent and funny all at the same time. And how the Joker got those scars on his face? Don't ask. Forget Jack Nicholson's version, this one just kicked its butt.

I want to talk more about it, but then there'll be spoilers. Which I'm not telling you about. I'm just telling you this: This movie also tells us the relationship between Batman and Joker. No, not that kind of relationship. Both Batman and Joker exist for each other(yes, I know that sounded wrong). Both of them are polar opposites: Batman an agent of order, the Joker for chaos. Without one, the other doesn't have a reason to exist.

Ok, I think I'm done. I think. If you're still reading this, you're an idiot. Get of the chair and go watch this movie now. Why? Let me tell you why: Iron Man was awesome, The Dark Knight is "so-awesomely-awesome-I-don't-have-an-awesomely-awesome-word-to-describe-awesome-awesomeness"
that kind of awesome. Get out now.

Never Gonna Give You Up...

2008-07-02T22:58:00.004+08:00

This is one of those "I'm-gonna sing-to-my-girlfriend-when-I-have-one" songs. It's kind of old though... Bet most of you haven't even heard of it... It's "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley. There was a music video for the song, but then YouTube won't let me embed it, so I took a gameplay video of the song in the game "Audiosurf". Heard it's fun.

Now here's the kicker, the chorus:

Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down

Never gonna run around and desert you

Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you

See, that's a problem. It's too perfect of a relationship. No man can ever, I mean EVER, pull this off. It's just not possible. Even I can't give that kind of promise to my girlfriend (if I have one). So here's my more "realistic" rendition:

I might never give you up
But I will let you down

Sometimes, I will have to run around and desert you

I can't say that I won't make you cry
Sooner or later we have to say goodbye
But I'll try my best not to tell a lie and hurt you

That's all I can offer to my girlfriend (still, if I have one). Only my best. I can't offer everything you ask for in a man, but at least I'm trying. There's no such thing as a perfect relationship. So girls, if you're dreaming for a knight in shining armour (CEO, Manager, Lawyer, Doctor etc) riding a white horse (Mercedes Benz), staying in a mansion, yeah, that isn't really going to work. But if you put your expectations a wee bit lower, like expecting a knight with chinks in his armour, riding a mule (anything from Proton), and staying in a terrace, you're in luck then. :)

P/S: This is one of my favorite songs... Might sing it sometime. Just hope that anything fragile won't shatter under my crow-like voice. Hehe...

This has been a Public Service Announcement...

2008-06-11T21:42:00.003+08:00

Well, since gas prices literally just soared, I thought that this would be a good time to share with you guys a PSA regarding gas prices from my favourite web series, "Red VS Blue"... Enjoy.

Uh...

2008-05-29T01:29:00.002+08:00

OK... This is awkward...

Never did expect this answer...

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

That's it. The gloves are coming off...

2008-05-25T13:59:00.002+08:00

I am surprised by the level of retarded-ness(if there is such a word) of Malaysians sometimes.

Normally I'd just laugh it off, but this one is just plain pissing me off.

Take a look at this article:

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/5/22/nation/21326822&sec=nation

For those too lazy to click, it's talking about school uniforms encouraging rape, saying that it's too "sexy". Seriously, it's too stupid for me to make it up myself.

See, apparently, either this group has a retarded way of picking their leader, or the group is just coming up with useless crap to attract attention. Either way, it worked. Yeah, great way of attracting attention, a-hole.

They "say" that the uniforms are "sexy and encourage rape. HELLO?! What made you say that? Did you do any research? Did you even bother? What research did you do? Did you:

a) Ask rape victims what they were wearing when they got raped?

b) Take statistics from police stations?

Or better yet,

c) Wore a uniform yourself, walked behind a dark alley, and see how many times you got raped?

Please, go do your research before you come out with some crappy conclusion.

Where did you study? Oh, I know, The University of Simply Making Conclusions Without Any Solid Research to Back It Up. If you can come up with this I can make up crap too. I can link piracy to the printing press. Believe me, I can.

Whoever you are, we don't need you. If you can only come up with this statement, get out. Nobody wants you.

Oh yeah, the retard has a blog too:

Blog so dumb I can't even make an insulting name for it

Damn. We're screwed, aren't we?

Wow. Wasn't expecting this answer...

2008-05-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men

You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Anyone can tell me if the answers reflect who I am?

Yes. Finally some old faces...

2008-05-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

This morning, I went back to my secondary school to attend the annual prefects gathering. Oh yeah, for those MMU dudes reading this, yes I was a prefect. I know, I don't look the part eh? Haha... This has been one of the best-kept secrets of mine, and the fact I speak fluent Mandarin. Oops... Shouldn't have said that.

Well, I went by invitation (graduated seniors get invited to the event). And a whole bunch of us seniors went. And we stuck like sore thumbs 'cause all of us weren't wearing uniforms. If you saw a bunch of strange-looking fellows wearing a myriad of colours not listed in the colour spectrum of uniforms, ie brown, blue, white etc, well that's pretty much the seniors. We could form our own angry mob... :)

Apparently I was the first to arrive(What?! It did say it would start at 8.00 a.m., you couldn't blame me for arriving early right?) Then, slowly but surely, seniors came, from my seniors, my batch, and my just-finished-school juniors. The juniors make up for most of the mob :) Well let's see... There are loads of names here...

And the sight of seeing juniors after one year... Wow... That's just emotional. I actually purposely did my 4 x 4 canvas and finished it on the same day just to meet this bunch. Yes, I can't believe I actually did that too.

If there were pictures, I would have posted. But then, I don't know where the camera has gone to at home... So, no choice but to post text here. Prefects, if any of you guys are reading this, can you send some of the pics to this senior? Pleeease....

It went well, other than a few hiccups. I was actually impressed by some of them juniors.

I returned back to the "home" that kept me occupied during secondary school. I felt at "home". Seeing all my friends that went through with me throughout secondary school made me feel belonged. Seeing my juniors grow makes me want to grow myself.

For once this year, I get to feel at peace. At the same time, I feel sadness. We are walking separate paths. All of us have to move on sometime. As my friends leave while I stay here, do I move on, or do I stay? At least I am happy, that at least our paths converged that one day, where we gathered and had fun.

P/S: Kwang Hua juniors reading this post, I am expecting the same from you guys. And please, invite me to next year's gathering OK? PLEEEEEASE... :)

Indecision...

2008-04-28T18:11:00.003+08:00

On one hand, I'll have a room... With a not-so-OK roommate... That I can still live with...

On another, I'll have to find a room... But I'll feel better about myself...

I picked the first choice...

I thought I would feel secure...

Instead, I feel a tug in me, telling me that something might be amiss...

Tell me, do I trust what my heart is telling me, or do I shrug it off?

God, hope that when You see this, You would give me the wisdom to choose.

I pray that the choice I made was according to Your will.

Far too often have I strayed.. It's time for me to go back... Step by step...

I asked for an answer, You gave me two choices...

Now I need wisdom...

I want to know what You want me to do...

Well, I'm pretty much screwed.

2008-04-21T20:58:00.002+08:00

Damn.

So many assignments. So little time.

Worse.

Just as I thought I had found a place to stay, God played a practical joke.

For some reason, the whole unit I was looking into was to be rented out.

So yeah, I'm pretty much screwed.

I'm hanging on by a thread here.

The worst case scenario now is me having to travel(gasp!), and judging by my sub-par driving skills, that's gonna take a little getting used to. (Duh, I said it *was* a worst case scenario)

Apparently God now has a twisted sense of humor. Keep it up God!(Saying with with utter disbelief)

So yeah, I am absolutely lost right now. If anyone here has got a place, PLEASE contact me. PLEASE.

I'm tired...

2008-04-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

I am so tired...

It's like my life's just been sapped out of me...

I'm like the polar opposite of the Duracell Bunny...

I am so bleedin' TIRED!!! So many assignments, so little time, even lesser energy!!!

Where did I go wrong?

Marathon runners call it "hitting the wall". Have I just hit mine? Or was I stuck there all along?

My body oh-so feels like shutting down, my brain tells me to shut down, but my conscience is holding me back.

Now, do I shut down, or press on?

Sigh...

2008-03-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

Well, I went for DF3 (Design Fundamental 3) mid-term review. This was the time we get our butts owned by the (in)famous Che Mad. For those non-FCMers, let's just say that Che Mad is not someone you want to tick off.

So, I went in for my turn. I got a pretty bad scolding. Things such as:
~ My subject matter wasn't relevant to my design statement
~ My work is last-minute work(kind-of true...)
~ There are no captions whatsoever for my precedent studies(I was following everybody...)
~ My layout was terrible(like almost everyone else that went before me...)

But here's something weird. It seems that our head lecturer is a bit temperamental. Could be just me walking in on the wrong time(stupid me...). Before me was a girl who got owned seriously. So, that could be the reason I got owned. (By the way, I actually didn't want to go that early, since his mood was not really good during the girl, but since I need to work on my English assignment...). Apparently, you need him in a good mood to minimise the "impact". Well, I got it head-on, full-force, 100%...

Sigh... Well, at least my one-week break would be well-occupied. :)

OK, that's done, so all I'll need to do is to find a brand new subject matter to work on...

I am discouraged... So discouraged...

2008-03-10T02:40:00.003+08:00

Why did God place me in MMU?

Why did He choose to separate me from my friends?

Am I even really cut out for this?

At times I just feel like giving up...

At times I just feel like surrendering...

At times I just let myself be washed away by the waves that continuously pound me...

Is He seriously planning to isolate me?

I can't even go to events that I want to go because of this accursed place...

I can't go to Royal Rangers Survival Camp this week...

I can't go for missions at the end of the year because of the accursed schedule...

I can't even gather with my friends from secondary school!

I just feel so discouraged...

Nothing ever seems to go right...

It's like even He is stopping me from doing what I am able to do...

I just...

Seriously...

Feel...

Like...

Giving...

Up.

I felt like I just died on the inside.

I felt like a piece of me just got ripped away by God.

Without them, then who am I?!

I am so lost...

Am I truly supposed to be here?

If I am, then why am I suffering?

If I am, then why am I crying?

If I am, then why am I so discouraged?

I. Just. Want. To. Give. Up.

But God doesn't even give me that pleasure.

So I keep pressing on...

Pressing on...

Pressing on...

Without a purpose whatsoever...

P/S: I am crying while writing this.

I AM SO SCREWED...

2008-03-07T02:38:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SCREWED...

Assignment Count:

Computer Graphics 3: QuarkXpress remake & Flash remake

English(yes, English): Acting

Design Fundamental 3: 20 pages for mid-term review. Current page count: 7.

...

...

...

...

...

This is not funny.

Not funny at all.

I can do CG3 on Tuesday... English is just a while... But DF3...

It is just a pain in the @$$...

I can't even push past 15...

Curse Che Mad for asking for that number...

Sigh... Can't touch BioShock until I'm done...

This is not fun.

Not fun at all.

January 28...

2008-01-28T15:20:00.000+08:00

... aka My BIRTHDAY!!! Unfortunately, this is also the day the new trimester starts. Yeah, MMU has great planning. Well, this is the first(!) birthday I'm all on my own. So, it is kinda sad.

Well, there's nothing quite special about this year's January 28 compared to previous years. Last year, Kamen Rider Den-O started on Jan 28. Some years I get Chinese New Year with my birthday. Yep, presents and red packets. And just a month after Christmas. Nothing more a kid could ask for. So, this year's kinda pales in comparison, with no presents, red packets and stuff. Yeah, pretty sad.

Let's see... there's nothing much to add... Now, just waiting for my new comp to come. "Old Faithful", this comp I'm using, is gonna need an upgrade, preferably 2GBs of DDR RAM. Yes, DDR, not DDR2 or DDR3. That shows you how old it is. If I could get an X1950, better. Yeah, now you know what I want(ed) for my birthday. Well, there's always the new comp at home (soon, I hope). Yes, both the comps are MINE, a reward for the PMR and SPM exams.

Well, there's nothing to rant anymore. So, bye-bye and God bless.

A New Year. A New Hero.

2008-01-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well, 2007 has passed by for a few weeks now. Now, I'm posting this since I am TOTALLY bored.

Well, there are a lot of endings as there are beginnings this year. "Kamen Rider Den-O" and "Juken Sentai Gekiranger", 2007's Japanese live-action series, are coming to an end. This was, in a way, an awesome pair of shows that has taught me about facing self-doubt and accepting destiny. I nearly cried when I saw the characters have their issues(I'm emo, what can I say?), yet understood what and how they felt. Seriously, check these shows out.

Then, there was also the Health Minister's resignation. Kind of sad, actually, to see a man leave politics in such a manner. Since there's this matter, remember those sexist MPs back then? Yeah, now I wish THEY would resign. Seriously. You're supposed to talk about current issues, not about menstruation or skirts. Dumbasses. Yeah, leave it to dirty old farts to attract attention where else but Cabinet. Yeah, pretty smart.

Now for the beginnings. For once, the USA might have a black president. WOW. This might be the beginning of a brand new America. One that doesn't attack countries simply for "peace". One that might change the face of America itself. God bless America on this one.

Then, there was the sad beginning. The Sharlinie case. Yes, I seriously am pissed off on this one. I was angry about the Nurin incident. And this just further feeds the flame of my anger. I am seriously pissed off. Seriously. If I had a sort of "evil sense", enhanced reflexes, enhanced agility and mastery over martial arts, I would personally become a vigilante. A vigilante like The Punisher or Batman. I would KILL them if necessary. I would do it. I've thought it out. I would wear a mask with a smile on it on my rounds. Between murdering criminals like them and letting them live, killing them is a sin I can live with. Yes, I am that serious about it. Now, to attain those powers...

That's it. Let's hope that 2008 would be a far better year than 2007. God bless.

Inner Peace...

2007-12-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

OK, so I've calmed down a bit now... Too occupied with Design Fundamental assignment to be depressed...

Still kinda worried, but then, who knows what role they play in this jigsaw of God's. Kinda makes God sound sadistic huh? Nah, no worries. He has a plan. I'll let Him deal with the future. If I could let go totally... Ah, total bliss...

Kinda makes us redundant huh? Our chains are already set free, yet we still pick them up and wear them. Ah, the beauty of humanity, always contradicting, a paradox in itself, never ceases to amaze me. Wonder how God feels.

Well, still down with a throat infection. Cough too hard and I find myself spitting blood. Yes, it sounds worse than it really is, but then, I've had it before. Scared my friends into thinking I had TB. Haha...

Well, that's all. Have to go sleep. If not, Che Mad will start to haunt me in the morning, interrupting my "fishing trip". Wonder what he'll do to me tomorrow. Oh, there it is again, me worrying about the future. See, the beauty of humanity. Ah...

P/S: Sometimes profound stuff just pops up out of my head, so don't be surprised if this happens again.

I AM SO SCARED...

2007-12-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

Man, Andy's message (read: sermon) really hit me...

Now, I keep questioning myself:

1. Am I supposed to be here(as in MMU)?

2. Am I supposed to be somewhere else?

3. Why am I not anywhere else(Limkokwing, The One, Taylor's, INTI, PJCAD, UTAR... and the list goes on...)

4. Why am I stuck here?

5. Am I supposed to do this(Creative Multimedia)?

6. What part do I play in this big jigsaw of God's?

7. Why do I constantly feel like I'm alone?

8. Why do I feel that God has something totally different for me?

9. Why am I scared?

10. Why am I crying on the inside?

11. What does HE want with me?

I AM SCARED... I AM VERY AFRAID... I CAN'T SEE WHAT'S AHEAD...

I AM LEFT BLIND... I AM FREAKED OUT... I AM DOUBTFUL...

YES, I AM INSECURE!!

I still don't know how I survived 18 years in the dark... with no sense of direction whatsoever...

I AM SCARED...

DO I STILL GO ON...

WOULD SOMEONE PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME AS TO WHAT I'M DOING RIGHT NOW!!!

I AM SO SCARED...

P/S: Sorry for the lack of updates. Been sick. Still sick. Avoid me like the plague. BTW, this is no emo post. Now, excuse me while I go wallow in self-doubt.

The Brave Few...

2007-12-03T12:54:00.000+08:00

Today(as of December 3, 2007), a group of young people have prepared to stand up for their faith. It wasn't compulsory, yet they still chose to do it. Many weren't doing it, yet they took it. It wasn't even asked of them, yet they were willing to study for it. Know what I'm talking about yet?

I'm talking, of course, about Bible Knowledge, one of the subjects found in our SPM examination(for those foreigners reading this blog, I think, the SPM is a little like the British O-Levels. I think. Maybe. I don't know.). This is one of those subjects that relatively few people know of, and even fewer take it, unlike it's Islamic counterpart. Today, a few friends of mine, my younger brother included, are going to sit for this subject in an hour's time.

You really feel like you're the super-minority group of the lot. You see, today, like last year's, the school is virtually empty, an empty husk, it's only you, your exam-mates, and the same old examiners you've been seeing for the past few weeks. Yes, I was one of them who took BK, and man, school was EMPTY. Altogether LESS THAN TEN of us took the exam last year, this year my school has LESS THAN FIVE...

I writing this post to tell you about these "unsung heroes", who are willing enough to spend their time to take an exam that isn't even required of them. Those who took time reading time to read the Gospel According to Luke and the Acts of the Apostles and taking this exam. Those who took 2 hours a week(that's a requirement) to be taught these books.

I salute you, proud heroes, for willing to stand up. As I am proud of you, I'm sure God would be too.

What the...

2007-11-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

OK, I just watched "One in a Million", some whacked ripoff from the Idol series while I was reading the newspaper. Don't ask me why I'm watching it, my sister was watching it so I just happened to be there. So there's the elimination rounds right, where they require the contestants to look at the screen and see their pictures. Now, herein lies the problem. You see your picture, you get eliminated; you don't see your picture, you're eliminated. Depends on which group you're in bla bla bla... Now, WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU PEOPLE TRYING TO DO?! Yes, I know suspense, but could you do that without confusing the audience? Suddenly dude sees his picture and gets eliminated, then another group sees his picture and gets to stay. WHAT THE HECK? Has Malaysian TV become so messed up that we rely on cheap shock tactics? Damn... I think your IQ would drop by watching this. I thnik. Oh crap, it's getting me... NOOOOOO...

An Introduction...

2007-11-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Yo, fellow bloggers!

Name's Andrew Yew. I'm relatively new to this "blogging" thing, so I'd really appreciate if you guys could give me a few pointers about this "blogging" activity. OK guys?

Currently, I'm stuck in "Bolehland" (aka Malaysia, look in the world map, if you see a small potato and a dog beside it, you found it). Not planning to leave (or can't leave, putting it accurately) this country of mine. Oh yeah, our country has a messed up Internet connection, so bear with me.

I'm hoping that this blog will accomplish "something", though I'm not sure what it is. Ah yes, I'm planning to make some small (read: extra pocket money, keeping it real, just a small amount, I'm a uni student) through this blog, so if you got some tips about making money through blogging, please let me know.

Well, I'm still thinking about what to share, but I have a rough idea, like:
1. My life, obviously
2. My comments about games I'm playing
3. Japanese live-action and anime
4. Current events(not going to do it often)
Any suggestions are VERY welcome. Don't be harsh, I'm a sensitive soul : )

Well, that's my introduction post. I'll try and update this once a week, if possible. Thanks for reading this.

P/S: I'll put my picture later. Don't be surprised if you don't see anything you don't like though...